Another year has passed and my mind has now put you in a different place I think as I no longer feel devastated, it feels like mourning again but in a different way! Now I feel enormously sad, sad that i would no longer see you smile, hear you laugh, hold you, walk beside you. Every thought is no longer an effort and I no longer want to die and ther might just be light at the end of the tunnel. Still feel your loss keenly but it is now a part of me that will be with me till the end of days. As I say, gone but will never be forgotten. Toks.